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Am I mentally troubled?

I was walking around waterfront in Toronto. I thought about various faces, trouts, salmons and mackerels. They are all attractive to me. I wanted to roast them and eat them. I read about crystals and troubles in the books of Donna haraway. Completing books has become my thesis of the works during and post schools. I’m at university of Toronto listening to a philosophy group talking about mental suffering and psychiatric experiment. It has made me think how I’m troubled by random people, strangers and events. I was obsessed with China thinking of it as a overtly powerful entity that had control of everybody’s life. From this it is emerged that a type of disgusts towards Asians, Chinese and China itself. I couldn’t help thinking these are all racists and racism. Is it superstitions? Is it superstitious? People often wonder about me and my life in a creepy way. I have faith it’s all about a type of mental sufferings related to sexualities, genders and race. Success is ever hanging over me like a sword. What does it mean to be successful? Are jobs enough to measure success? Or is it my ideas and how it comes into fruition? This is a dangerous overthinking? I thought about often of those exhibitions. They are all kind of racist to me. Etc.