I stand quite right at this very moment, leaving a life of yacht and pleasures. It was absurdity making me want to vomit. I came with friends. They all killed themselves on the yacht. They were either drowned or murdered. Only I was exceptional alone in the world surviving and living. I saw a feast of lobster at the banquet. No, I’m not playing characters. I ate a lobster roll. It was disgusting. It was bland. This was yacht food. I saw an insect with dark metal shell on its back crawling on the table. I ignored it pretending I didn’t see it. It was angry. I could tell. I stood up going to the deck watching the horizons feeling anxious than ever. Oh how I could live without money. Then I saw it again the insect. I couldn’t believe my eyes. What is it trying to do in this bright daylight? Etc.
I’m on a cruise to go to North Pole. People were gazing. The sky was vast and blue. It made my face feel slathered on peeling cream. I thought I was going to die. But somehow I saw that insect again. I gave it a name, Lucifer. It stuck and struck me as biblical like this trip. I went back to my room eating cakes, sushi and drank coke. It didn’t do anything good to my stomach. I controlled the pain level with tums. Then a service person on the cruise knocked on the door. “We are dissembling. Can you go to the restaurant? I will just clean your room.” I was shocked. What does he mean by dissembling? I took my belongings and went down to the bottom of cruise. I sat at a restaurant waiting. He said it was going to be only 20 minutes. I found that quite unnerving. I ordered some food, some snacks, meat ball with Greek sauce. I savored it like a hungry person. Afterwards the radio told the customers me included to go back to our room. That’s what I did soon after.
Yuling Chen 