I was walking on the sidewalk because I had stomach pains. I tried to walk it off. And cars were harassing me. So I asked tarot cards what they/he said to me. Then I made it up saying he/they loved me. And he/they would move me out of where I currently live and I have nothing to worry about. Then people started harassing me threatening with leaving such as my mother, bin Chen. I was shocked. This had to be some sort of urban malice, didn’t it? I have been living in Markham since 2023. A few weeks ago my mother, bin Chen, applied for government housing, etc. , which would normally take a long time. I’m wondering what the rest of my life it would be. I got scared. Am I going to live in a shelter or be on the street? What did I do to deserve this? Are strangers trying stuff that’s crazy? Can they leave me alone? That’s the whole thing about Markham. I hated the ideas that I was all alone in the world. There are so many Chinese people here. People living here don’t seem to be happy. Suburbs are really this oppressive. When will I find a boyfriend, have money and move to wherever I feel like? It’s so insane. Women from China like my mother, Bin Chen, could stay here and waiting for permanent residency. That’s it for immigration. I guess that’s what Markham is, immigrants and immigration. I’m already a Canadian citizen. Do these people even know that? What do they want? Why are they so aggressive? I’m planning a trip to Los Angeles and New York in June and multiple trips to New York. It was really fun before. But all of sudden these trips were shadowed with fears. Am I going to be left at the bus station and unable to find the buses? How am I going to charge my phones on the trip? Should I have bought plane tickets? Am I too greedy? Are these trips worth it? What if I missed the buses? Etc. 

I think it’s these strangers found out about my writings and files. They were obsessed with divinations. They are trying to say I’m not myself. I found it weird. I’m always myself. Etc.