My dad chenshangwen sent me abroad in 2010. I cried a lot. And he eventually agreed to have me study abroad on a study exchange program. Then all of sudden he had cancer. I was shocked. How is it possible? I was left bereft. Then I got married the first time. I later got a divorce. He was said to pass away which I never had a chance to witness. Now I’m all alone in North America. The only thing I cared about was reading newspapers like the New York Times. I saw how the world descent into wars and madness. I started to realize the job markets were basically over. No one had any jobs due to these atrocities. I was on social securities. All day I’m worried about not having money in the future. I wonder whether anyone had the similar feelings like I do. Etc.