I went to temples all by myself since I graduated. I cared a lot about China. The divination texts I got often shocked and scared me. It talked about people’s characters using ancient poems from China. One of them said something close to beware of being slutty. I was very offended. However I had no one to vent for except Alex Banman at that point. So I was worried. I’m worried about my careers. I had acquired a skill to delete my works and asked people to delete it in an act of cleansing later on. Since then I have lived quite precariously and turbulently facing evictions, charges and accusations. I never imagined and couldn’t imagine how I had lived. China’s recent news showed that people are worried about their assets and money abroad. The economy is slow. The fear coming from mental health issues has become significant. I wonder about jobs and industrial productions. Then in 2023, Alex Banman got my mother to come to Canada. She applied to permanent residence on the basis of asylums claims. I have some what stabilize my home environment. But worries accompany me. I think this is the price you pay for getting a divorce. Etc.