Tom Felton had gotten a lot of jobs since the pandemic. I remember seeing him around 2010 or 2011 after I moved to Canada at a comic con. I didn’t go up to him for a photo op autograph. I was feeling uncomfortable worrying about losing face and being awkward. That night a group of teens in Toronto came smashing the garage door of my mother’s friend, Liu minli, ‘s Victoria park house of which I was staying. I got scared. I ran up the stairs and hid in my room. After a while they gave up and left. I came out of the room checking on Liu minli and the cats on the balcony. Since then my years living in Canada has been plagued with thoughts and ideas about celebrities like him. After I finally graduated from OCAD University, I followed him on instagram listening to him playing music in California. I started to dream about getting a new boyfriend and getting married again. That had become my preoccupation. I took a course that I didn’t finish and dropped out at the university of Toronto continuing education writing novels. I since had written a lot of stories involving two people happily married. I also started to play tarot cards, iching and runes devising narratives as my artworks. I went to stay for one night after lifan Zhou and Xi Cheng, two people I met in OCAD university, invited me. They acted weird and offensive, bullying me about jobs and future prospects asking in an aggressive way about my jobs and job prospects. I didn’t like them. But I told them the truths about getting married and looking for works in Canada. They looked hateful, mean and jealous. To be frank they scare me a little bit. Are they criminals? They also talked about liquid coming out of their belly buttons. Are they just hanging out with me? Anyway, I didn’t like them and certainly didn’t need people to treat me this way. I left and quickly forgot about this. I went home continuing to play with those divination games. The ritual like playing soothes me. I found truth through my writing. That’s how I set boundaries between me and the rest of the world. I wonder what future holds for me. Etc.