In 2023 I was in a mental hospital. People seemed to be shocked I was there. But i had one of psychosis, psychological break so hard I ended up checking myself in there. After a few days, I was discharged. During the stay, a guy kept playing piano in the common room. That made an impression on me. They also invited me to do sports. I played for a bit. And then it became too much. So I told them I needed rest. Then I was gone thinking I had left my phone there. I called and messaged the social workers. They couldn’t find it. After a few weeks I found it at home. Now I thought about that period of my life as a race to somewhere, thinking of finding a boyfriend, getting married and having a chance to be pregnant and have babies before 35 years old. I just saw Alex Cooper from call her daddy talked about being pregnant and never be alone again in her life. I felt a pang of familiar feelings. I felt the same thing even though I’m not pregnant. Etc.