I was talking to qirou yang one day in 2019. She asked me whether she should marry this Chinese Canadian guy she was dating. I found that question offensive. How do I know the answer? I didn’t answer her because I couldn’t. I sensed she wanted an answer that fit what she was already thinking. To be honest, if you want to marry somebody and they asked, then you could. It’s completely your freedom to do so. Then I went to club with two Chinese guys and lifan Zhou. She seemed to be interested in one of them. But he didn’t seem that interested. I left feeling it was weird how the night went. I could be wrong. He could be totally interested in her. Who knows. I was too busy dancing. To me, enjoying myself was way more important than what two strangers think of me. Then after a few years, I saw qirou yang’s website clearly parting with that guy she dated calling another Asian person in her photograph her partner. I talked to lifan Zhou on WeChat. She also told me she dated that one guy and broke up with him already. The thing is I asked about two of them when I was playing with iching divination. It all told me they broke up already. I couldn’t believe it was that accurate. I was shocked. What other power does it have? I at first doubted their sincerity, their talking and blog posts. But it really is that accurate. I’m like completely floored.

I started to play with iching more. It was then I realized though it might be superstitious it can totally add something intellectual in my work if I incorporate them, iching, tarot and divinations in my way. Since then I either kept a deck in my purse or got online version open on my phone thinking and obsessing how I could add them in my work and practice. In 2021 after I was arrested which was unbelievable, because Alex Banman attempted to hit or abuse me first, I was sitting at the backseat of police car. Because my phone was on, I opened the website to shuffle cards. The police saw it and told me not to do it. He took my phone away. It made me quite anxious. I soon realized they were arresting me not because I and Alex Banman got into fights, but because I was part of the Black Lives Matter George Floyd protests in 2019. Or I could be wrong. It could also be because I got upset and kicked Alex Banman. I was diagnosed with psychosis later. After I got released, I continued to play cards and made works about them. I got arrested one more time in 2023. After I was released and left Alex Banman, I did some more work changing directions in my works right after making them about urban events, news and archetypes. Nowadays I used both or more divination methods or games to make works to examine the relationship between texts, imageries and objects. It had really liberate my thinking on everything. Etc.