New York

I have been to New York many times. It’s really like adventure vacation. Do I need to pause and stop going there? Is it too much? Can someone tell me? Or do I need to keep going? Having a purpose should be fun. New York is a big city. People dreamed of living there. Is this privilege? I have been so many times I think locals all knew me. They often walked in front of and around me. I thought that was quite racists. I have tried many times to adapt myself. It went nowhere. I met many people on my vacations. They seemed to do the same thing like no problems. Am I the only person who is concerned about face, persons and money? Will it help me get a job, a real job, a paying job? Etc.