So a few months ago I started to travel to New York. Because I thought my application of severe permanent disability benefit will come through. Now a few months later the pay and file has found me. I don’t know how I’m so obsessed with the debts again. I just hope they would cancel my student loan debts because I do have a disability and am on odsp. I thought I was going to immigrate again and found jobs in the United States. It’s all about making art and finding jobs. I just can’t imagine how I will live here. Etc.