In 2013 or so Alex banman and I adopted a cat. We named it utopia. Utopia was treated with care and caution. However he accidentally dropped the cat once. Its back leg always dragged a little. Later on in 2018 I and Doris djoleka shot videos for an installation that was going to be exhibited at our apartment. I used meat and honey in the shooting. Utopia came in to the room and wanted some. I picked her up and firmly said no. It got utopia all agitated and aggressive. she ambushed Doris and scratched her leg. Later that also happened to Alex Banman. Then it happened to me. She dug her claw in my arm. I had to cold treat her by locking her in the bathroom for a few minutes. Then later that year, we got a second cat, a male Scottish fold with a bad eye, mercury. They didn’t get along. We finally had to rehome utopia. She was sent to the humane society of Toronto. I just realized my psychosis probably flared up because I broke up with Alex Banman in 2017 and faced instability in my life. I often regretted going to OCAD university because I took on debts, OSAP, government loans. I should have kept working instead of going back for another bachelor degree probably. But the prospect of works enticed me. I thought I could have new careers and new works. That didn’t pan out. Etc.