I remembered how I wrote about dream (incestual) sex/rape and imagined sex. I thought it was all over for me career wise and at least socially. That was all between 2023 / 2021 and 2025. But that’s not the truth. I moved on pretty quickly. It was nothing. It did put a block on my mental space for a while. I have even developed psychosis and a self restricting way to do things and write stuff. But then it soon fizzled out as I reflected on myself and the cards I was playing, tarot, poker and iching. I realized I just really liked the imagery and texts. I realized further about systems. It doesn’t exists. It should be dismantled. It must be trash talk in academic. Etc.