I was in pei on Christmas with Xiaodan wang. She has developed a liking for black foreigners /people since she moved to Canada in 2010 with me facing intense social risk. I have fought with her in our basement apartment and on the way back from the universities. She was withdrawn and cold on purpose making me hurt for no reasons. I felt she was raped or confronted with some sort of trauma while I’m not knowing and wasn’t around. This idea or knowledge scared the shit out of me. Was it done to her by those communists in China? Was it white people, evangelicals or waspy Protestants in North America? This absurd myth followed me to wherever I went. I was obsessed. I was incensed by her ever more cold shoulder out of nowhere. It made me extremely upset in my waking life. I have also developed an eating disorder due to this being judged by all these people in schools and school cafeteria. We took the same class one day, a philosophy class. She hitched herself on this professor called Pamela. She invited both of us to her house. I was not into that idea finding her racist and frankly boring. She later called me funky which I deemed it’s the residual of this bad blood. Etc.