I’m currently living with my mother in Markham. The thought of the past relationships and things in 2020 and 2019 made me feel sad, wanting to throw up and having anxiety attacks. I checked on google. It talked about how these types of emotional wounds often got reopened if you talked to the past people. So I tried to put my thoughts in the present. Currently I’m writing and making videos about my life right now. That did seem to move the thoughts to present and the future. It made the current landscape a little more bearable due to my agency in terms of writing and creating creative practices. I’m more motivated than ever to move out of a painful mind space. Etc.