Today I got up and started to worry about today’s class. I think I’m pretty successful to be honest. With my blogs, videos, writings and everything. It’s all about styles. The way you do it. I did some jobs that were unpaid. Now I have spdb benefit and on odsp due to my disabilities, psychosis, schizophrenia. Other debts probably fell away and got cancelled. I want to regroup and reorganize my life to continue to be successful without getting a graduate degree even though I applied again this year. I really could spend time also on some other stuff. I feel there are people try to make me obsess with what other people’s jobs and schools are real or not so they could do something crazy. It’s probably just a paranoia. Etc. I had a terrible dream. In the dream Alex Banman kept harassing me to go to nyc or something trying illegal stuff, like illegal oil or drugs. I woke up feeling it’s because my writing. Then I promptly change to all is real. I don’t want to have dreams like this. I don’t like people like them who don’t put me as their priority. That’s about it.